i was too tired yesterday to blog. i actually fell asleep at 12am! without even bathing, i just fell asleep with my jeans on. i was just too tired to do anything. yesterday was ok i guess. had a really long day.
but nothing can beat today. was in college around 8.30, which surprised all of my classmates. they were like saying, "you always come late and when the class is ending, today is soooo special huh?" hahahaha i just laughed everything off. it is true, i do go to class late. but my attendence rate is better than most of my classmates. i have only three absents for three classes. most of them has more than three absents in the same class! hehehe see ... its all good in the end right? =)
i've been eating alot lately and i think im putting on weight. but i love the way i look now. skin and bones. hehehe oh well. have to look like my baby picture. so cute! hehehe
ok then. exams are next week and im starting to stress out. but still being slumber about it. im just scared for accounts. the only subject im failing this term. i seriously have to keep up with the class and not sleep. i wish i did accounts in high school. then i would know the basics. sheesh.
everyday seems to be a ... better day. my smoking habits have been cut down. my eating habits have increased. i havent touched a single drip of alcohol since ... 2 weeks. im actually moving on. i cant believe it. but one thing is still stuck on my mind. well, two actually. one of them will end at the end of this month while the other would haunt me for the rest of my life. i just cant believe "I" did it. i feel so irresponsible. as a man. such stupidity. sigh. i bet she told him everything about it already and both of them would probably be laughing at me. pointing fingers and saying how stupid i was. well, am.
the past cant be changed, so its better to move on and mend your own future with what you have now. dont think of bitter things as it would just bring you lower and you might just start all over again, from scratch. feeling down and being anti social. everyone goes through pain and agony. but not many people has gone through what i have.
rick.
but nothing can beat today. was in college around 8.30, which surprised all of my classmates. they were like saying, "you always come late and when the class is ending, today is soooo special huh?" hahahaha i just laughed everything off. it is true, i do go to class late. but my attendence rate is better than most of my classmates. i have only three absents for three classes. most of them has more than three absents in the same class! hehehe see ... its all good in the end right? =)
i've been eating alot lately and i think im putting on weight. but i love the way i look now. skin and bones. hehehe oh well. have to look like my baby picture. so cute! hehehe
ok then. exams are next week and im starting to stress out. but still being slumber about it. im just scared for accounts. the only subject im failing this term. i seriously have to keep up with the class and not sleep. i wish i did accounts in high school. then i would know the basics. sheesh.
everyday seems to be a ... better day. my smoking habits have been cut down. my eating habits have increased. i havent touched a single drip of alcohol since ... 2 weeks. im actually moving on. i cant believe it. but one thing is still stuck on my mind. well, two actually. one of them will end at the end of this month while the other would haunt me for the rest of my life. i just cant believe "I" did it. i feel so irresponsible. as a man. such stupidity. sigh. i bet she told him everything about it already and both of them would probably be laughing at me. pointing fingers and saying how stupid i was. well, am.
the past cant be changed, so its better to move on and mend your own future with what you have now. dont think of bitter things as it would just bring you lower and you might just start all over again, from scratch. feeling down and being anti social. everyone goes through pain and agony. but not many people has gone through what i have.
rick.
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